Depressed

I am very depressed today. I didn't get into small ensemble! I am fucking pissed, depressed and a mood that i can only explain as kill my band director. I have no idea why not. I mean, my friends even listened to me play and the other guy thought i did better than him, and he got in! I couldn't have done that awful! If two people auditioned and he wanted two spots I must have done fucking terrible in his eyes! God, I know I sound like a pussy but, every time I think about it I want to fucking cry! I'm in the marching band! This was the easiest piece I've done since I joined the Raiders! I think my band director just hates me, the feeling is mutual. Tomorrow is the VA parade, I get to miss half of school! That's it. I am going to go punch my band director in the face!